Solanna
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Post by Solanna on May 2, 2019 2:01:14 GMT
Just needed to share this somewhere cause its been eating me up inside and I need to say it or I will explode.
I am struggling to keep afloat. I lost my job, a dear friend tried to commit suicide last week and I have been suffering severe depression, my passion and drive have completely disappeared and I am fighting a losing battle against my minds desire to just give up and submit.
I am trying to have one last push to get even a glimmer of my happiness back and pull myself out of this hole but I hold little hope I will succeed.
Life sucks.
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Post by endorbr on May 2, 2019 3:46:24 GMT
Maybe this will help a little
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Solanna
Gorilla Grod
Harambe's Hottie
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Post by Solanna on May 2, 2019 6:31:53 GMT
Lol, thank you
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Post by TidusandYuna1983 on May 2, 2019 7:10:30 GMT
Depression is horrible. I suffered from it for a while. Truthfully, it was because I missed being in Asia, and I've fixed that problem. Dunno what I can say to help, just hang on in there, if you know what your goals are, there's always light at the end of the tunnel .
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Post by Uesugi-dono on May 2, 2019 11:55:17 GMT
Just needed to share this somewhere cause its been eating me up inside and I need to say it or I will explode. I am struggling to keep afloat. I lost my job, a dear friend tried to commit suicide last week and I have been suffering severe depression, my passion and drive have completely disappeared and I am fighting a losing battle against my minds desire to just give up and submit. I am trying to have one last push to get even a glimmer of my happiness back and pull myself out of this hole but I hold little hope I will succeed. Life sucks. It always amuses me when I see people on the internet talk about how they 'used' to be depressed. In my experience depression is just something you live with. Some days its worse, some days its better, but its just always there; a little demon lurking in the shadows of your being, reminding you how worthless you are on a constant basis. At one point I named mine! I considered it a fractured little multiple personality, the constant doubt and negativity that always tried to drag me down. Giving my depression a proper name helped me to deal with some of its dark temptations. Even today, when I wake up sometimes I just breathe the word "death" as if by saying it I might just collapse and not have to do all this anymore. But I realize that's my demon. That's the depression that I live with, even in happy times, just trying to shit on my day. Losing your job really sucks. Losing a friend is exponentially worse. I am so sorry for your loss. If we were closer (or even on the same continent!) I'd feel like I could do more for you. As it stands though I am here digitally... and hey, it's my friday. I'll be gaming in about 13 hours... if you can't sleep. Even if you can't find a headset and I don't get to hear that cute Russian accent we could try to shareplay Helldivers. HD doesn't require a lot of voice communication, it has quick messages (similar to, but much more effective than FH) and functions as the best Co-op game I've ever played. If I remember correctly there's a few hiccups to getting it started w/o both people having the game but we can try. The netcode was strong enough that Katzie and I had a flawless experience despite him being in Perth and me being in the SE US. That or we could try any number of other games. I'm here if you need me. This will sound like a shameless plug, but when I'm depressed and don't feel like doing anything sometimes reading helps. I sent you a book, didn't I? Also I'm available through the day to assist with your Samurai project. Hang in there, dear. I know you're running with the Weebs now but we're Vikings at heart. Depression is a challenge but when have we ever backed down from those? You and I led hordes against salty, feckless Tincels... we did it despite Ubi's efforts to stop us. The memories of these communities is shorter than their dicks but there are still those who remember how LEGENDARY we are.
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