Post by kungfubunnny on Dec 18, 2018 7:06:03 GMT
Hey, guys, it's me Bunneh.
Been a while, hasn't it? I'm posting as a guest because I don't know if I am welcome here anymore after what I had done, but I need for you to hear me out.
Even though, you've heard it a million times before from me, it's important. And even if you decide not to welcome me back, or repair any burned bridges, I wanted to at least get this off my chest.
Yes, I owe you yet another apology.
Once again I have said some terrible things, and did stuff that I regret doing.
I unfriended and blocked you --- for no reason other than anger that I couldn't control, and issues with my mental health that got the best of me. I make no excuses for it----I was a jerk.
Uesugi-dono, endorbr, especially, I was a jerk to you guys. I take back all the awful things I said, and regret the things I have done to you. I do have anger issues that I deal with on a regular basis. You guys are not the only ones I've done it to---I've done it to my other friends outside of this place as well---even my best friend whom I've known for many, many years. I remember unfriending him on FB and blocking him on my phone for several months after we had had a heated argument. So, you are not the only people I've done this to.
My mental health stems from years of being bullied for my learning disability and an insensitive father who didn't understand my struggles and often yelled at me for not being "normal" like my brother and sister. And although I continue to suffer from depression, anxiety and other issues, I have learned to manage them in a way that doesn't hinder my quality of life.
So, I realize this may be my umpteenth apology letter. You've given me so many chances, and I feel like I've blown them all due to my behavior. Thus, if you feel as if you can't forgive me this time, I completely understand.
endorbr, I owe you an apology especially. I have known you long enough to hold views and opinions that are different from my own, but deep down, you're one of my closest friends. I remember when you sent me a PM on PSN after the blowup at Fuse----it was a comforting message of encouragement that I honestly did not expect from you, but it held deep meaning for me. I feel awful for lashing out at you the last time. So, that being said, I truly, deeply apologize for how I acted towards you, and some of the mean words I said. Just know that I hold our friendship in the highest regard, and if you do decide to forgive me, I'll keep my mouth shut about .... well, you know.
Uesugi-dono, I owe you the biggest apology of all. You've always been there for me, and time and time again, I've let you down. I betrayed you this time by blocking you on PSN and unfriending you. I did that twice already without even thinking. I let my anger get the best of me, and it wasn't your fault. I take full responsibility. Know now that I have unblocked you so you can message me if you want, and we can reestablish our friendship. Yet, maybe you can't forgive me this time after all the times you have forgiven my foolishness. I know I let you down, and hurt you. I'm truly sorry, and regret the awful things I have done. You're one of my greatest friends, and I never ever meant to hurt you like that. I will never do anything like this ever again. I have a lot to learn about myself, and how to keep friends.
I have unblocked you on PSN so the lines of communication are open if you want to communicate. If you fee like talking at all, please message me on PSN first if you want to talk. I'm not sure if I am welcome at the Hideaway anymore---it would make me feel better if we could converse privately so we can go over things.
Thanks for being there for me, and being in my corner.
Been a while, hasn't it? I'm posting as a guest because I don't know if I am welcome here anymore after what I had done, but I need for you to hear me out.
Even though, you've heard it a million times before from me, it's important. And even if you decide not to welcome me back, or repair any burned bridges, I wanted to at least get this off my chest.
Yes, I owe you yet another apology.
Once again I have said some terrible things, and did stuff that I regret doing.
I unfriended and blocked you --- for no reason other than anger that I couldn't control, and issues with my mental health that got the best of me. I make no excuses for it----I was a jerk.
Uesugi-dono, endorbr, especially, I was a jerk to you guys. I take back all the awful things I said, and regret the things I have done to you. I do have anger issues that I deal with on a regular basis. You guys are not the only ones I've done it to---I've done it to my other friends outside of this place as well---even my best friend whom I've known for many, many years. I remember unfriending him on FB and blocking him on my phone for several months after we had had a heated argument. So, you are not the only people I've done this to.
My mental health stems from years of being bullied for my learning disability and an insensitive father who didn't understand my struggles and often yelled at me for not being "normal" like my brother and sister. And although I continue to suffer from depression, anxiety and other issues, I have learned to manage them in a way that doesn't hinder my quality of life.
So, I realize this may be my umpteenth apology letter. You've given me so many chances, and I feel like I've blown them all due to my behavior. Thus, if you feel as if you can't forgive me this time, I completely understand.
endorbr, I owe you an apology especially. I have known you long enough to hold views and opinions that are different from my own, but deep down, you're one of my closest friends. I remember when you sent me a PM on PSN after the blowup at Fuse----it was a comforting message of encouragement that I honestly did not expect from you, but it held deep meaning for me. I feel awful for lashing out at you the last time. So, that being said, I truly, deeply apologize for how I acted towards you, and some of the mean words I said. Just know that I hold our friendship in the highest regard, and if you do decide to forgive me, I'll keep my mouth shut about .... well, you know.
Uesugi-dono, I owe you the biggest apology of all. You've always been there for me, and time and time again, I've let you down. I betrayed you this time by blocking you on PSN and unfriending you. I did that twice already without even thinking. I let my anger get the best of me, and it wasn't your fault. I take full responsibility. Know now that I have unblocked you so you can message me if you want, and we can reestablish our friendship. Yet, maybe you can't forgive me this time after all the times you have forgiven my foolishness. I know I let you down, and hurt you. I'm truly sorry, and regret the awful things I have done. You're one of my greatest friends, and I never ever meant to hurt you like that. I will never do anything like this ever again. I have a lot to learn about myself, and how to keep friends.
I have unblocked you on PSN so the lines of communication are open if you want to communicate. If you fee like talking at all, please message me on PSN first if you want to talk. I'm not sure if I am welcome at the Hideaway anymore---it would make me feel better if we could converse privately so we can go over things.
Thanks for being there for me, and being in my corner.
